I LOVE YOU BUDDYZZZ!!! ^__^

OMG!! UNBELIEVABLE~~ Finally I have the courage 2 cycle 2 ke xin's house 2 have steamboat wif all my friendss~~~ AHHH~~~ I am soo soo soo happie lor!!! hehe 2nite is the MOST MOST MOST Happiest Night I ever had in KAMPAR since i came here 2 study~~ Thanks a lot 2 all my vry vry best friends-- Kexin,Shuyee,Zingxin,Wenjing,Runying,Peixian,Vanessa,Xiaowen,Apple,Chhonsiong,Weiyao,Eujian,Xiangyou,Yingxin&Sweehong..... A thousand Thanks to all of you in having such a wonderful steamboat dinner wif me!! Thanks you vry much 2 Runying for teman me cycling all the way 2 kexin's house... Really really thankssssssss... If not u teman I would not have the courage 2 cycle 2 kexin's house.... n Thanks a lot minna-san in encouraging n help me when i learn cycle~~ Finally I have step out MY 1ST STEP LIAO~~~ ^^

We have alot of fun at kexin's house.... especially when v all make fun of Kexin n weiyao~~~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I cannot stop laughing for the whole night there~~~ hahahahahaha tas really really funnyyyyyyy!! but is good laa~~ strenghten their relationship kakakakaka =p Nearly got sorethroat due 2 laughing too much ady~~~ hahahahax xD n i have a kai mummy liao lor... Tats Shuyee hehe xp like 2 play family withiin all the best friends luu~~~ kekekeke =D

Ahhhhh~~ until now i still cannot stooooop laughing~~ alrite alrite tats enuf laa~~ 2mr gotta wake up early again~~ so... Tats all for 2day laa~~~ Have a sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet dream o everyone~~ Oyasuminasai  ^^

Feeling down... ><''

Come on... What's wrong wif me?? Why am I acting soo soo...? KHOO XIU HUA!! Can u pls stop this silly&childish act..? Act like an adult pls...!!  Be strong.. This is not the end of the world laa~~ Dont make urself like a foolish person... U no nid 2 be like tat ok?! Be optimistic... Be mature... Be strong... U are no more a small girl... U gonna grow up... This is just 1 small little part that u need 2 face throughout ur entire life... U still got a long long way to go in ur future.. If u just fall down a little bit n cry on the floor like a 3 year old little girl... How are u gonna solve this problem..? even u cry... who else will come n comort u..? NO ONE PLS!!


 Dear xiuhua...Its the time for u to be independent!! U need 2 stand up n continue no matter wat happens ok?! there wouldn't b anyone helping you if u dun help urself up.. wei..坚强一点啦! 看开一点啦!不要动不动就抱怨。。tats no use... no one will care for u laa.... still wanna act like a small child n let other ppl laugh at u?? 不要酱丢脸啦... Tats not u... U should be used 2 it.. fall down ady just stand up.. smile smile n walk away like nth happens... U should used 2 hide ur emotions well enough..  C'mon dun keep complaining other ppl teat u no good... look at urself... reflect ur ownself pls... what have u done har...? at the end wat u expect ppl will treat u if u treat ppl like that? Think carefully!! U should be the one that feel ashamed... Shameful for u laa gosh! 

Am I really tat kind of ppl... Am I really no used...? Am I a bad girl? Did I really deserved tat....? Am I taking too for granted..? Am I expecting too much from myself n others? I am not sure... I am lost... I need some1 2 scold me... I need some1 2 comfort me... I need some1 u wake me up... Am I wasting my time?? It is my own fault?I dunno~~~ SHIT! THIS IS SO UNLIKE ME... Not my style lor! ~.~

I okay not?!

... dunno 1 2 write wat... nth 2 say... feel tired.. feel sleepy... dun 1 2 think about it anymore... Its not the time yet... when the time comes.... automatically it will be alright... wat am I doing now..? feel lost... where am I... Y do I act so strange... so weird?! wat happen 2 me..? Who knows wat I am thinking... Am I alright..? Dizzy... Numbness... speechless... I just noe tat... I am not acting like the usual me... I am not who I recognized... I am who I am now... blur-ing.... sot jor kah??

I'm so forgetful! ><''

OMG... when I gone back 2 kampar n wanna bath just now.... then oni I noticed i dint bring  my another towel cme back ar~~ >< n my clothes all take to the laundry monday oni can take back~~ haizya... y I so sooo 4getful 1 de~~ cannot laa like tat!! next time dun like tat ady har...?!! I have no choice gotta pinjam my friend's towel... luckily she got extra 1~~ If not i dunno how to bath~~ LOL!! Thanks to kelly... really really thank you vry much~~ I cant live without u lor... hahaha =D

Anime =p

woohoo! finally finished watching anime BLOOD + ady... although the ending not quite satisfied, anyway it was a good ending indeed~~ haiz... but I really hope Saya can 2gether wif Haji in the end lor...>.<  there are total 50 episode n I manage 2 finished it by 1 n a half day.... hahax crazy me! ^^''' mah mah.... tats nth 4 an anime lover hehe xp Its was a nice story... and vry touching too~~ <3 it =D

Phew~~ =]

This morning.. again wake up at 6am >< but luckily... 2mr no class~~ yeppie hahaha =D I can sleep until wat time oso can ady~~ finally woohoo ^^ anyway 1st week lectures just ended up like tat... not bad ya~~ xp

2day quite unfortunate to me.... after I finished my 1st lecture 2day, then i went to the cafeteria to eat breakfast but... when i reached there, found a place n sit... then I open my bag's small pocket OMG!!! then oni i noticed i dint bring my purse to uni~~~ 0.0 I checked again n again n again... then I surrender ady becoz I reallly dint bring!! wuwuwu T.T at tat moment , I really really 1 2 cry out tat time~~ I feel so nervous n helpless... I need sum1 to tel me wat to do~~ becoz I seldom faced wif this kind of situation lor~~ ><'' n then I try 2 calm down myself n sms my frens  whether my friends they are at shool anot... but unluckily they dint =/ I told myself nvmd nvmd... calm down xiuhua there's nth u cant solve...  最多I dun eat lunch lor.... n then I fine again ^^'' haiz.... really hate will happen this kind of matter when alone in uni lor~~~ T.T

actually Im quite fortunate oso laa... at least after noon, after the lecture class I no nid 2 walk back 2 my house... Thanks a lot to wenjing lo~~ really really thank you ar wenjing... using her new e-bike 2 fetch me home =) I feel so appie when there are frens help me when I really nid help hehe =p Its a new experience sitting on wenjing's e-bike hahaha =D once more thank you vry much wenjing!! ^^

Well.. As usual =')

Hugh... juz wake up n slept for 2 hours~~ btw u can c how tired I am... sleep 4 so long duno 2nite can sleep anot ar~~ iya iya >.<

2day's maths lecture so hard... cannot understand wat the teacher really teach~~ all things learnt 2nite were those I dint learn before... duno whether I can cope up anot haiz.... T.T and 2day I have computing technology lecture class oso... Surprisingly. the lecturer was my academic adviser!! hahaha =D she's quite a funny n interesting lecturer indeed... Although I'm a "电脑白痴" but I will try my best 2 understand this subject n bla bla bla... =)

I dun 1 to think nonsense now... I dun 1 to think of somebody...  dun 1 2 care about watever things tat person done... I scared I cannot control my emotions.. I dun 1 2 involve myself with those things so earlier...I scared I'll be like 1 of my frens like tat... I cant pull myself out once I'm fallen into it... I've giv up those things vry vyr long time ago n I tell myself dun think of at all.... n I hope this time I can b fine... pls leave me alone..ok?! I wont feel lonely becoz honestly I've used to it... so,can u pls go out of my mind..?! dun come in illegally... U're not welcome!!  ><''

Hahax duno wat I'm crapping oso... sot jor~~ hehehe ^^'''